apparently, i don't do pink...of any kind.

Friday night we went here for good times with family and friends...and 'ritas. Had a blast and made promises to do it more often.

What's pink and purple and sparkly all over? A 3yro's birthday party, duh! We drove south for the frilly event and while we had a reasonably good time (see below) seeing old friends and hanging with family, I came away with a few observations. One: I found myself praying (more than once) that if we have a child(ren), I am not entirely certain I can handle a girl; two: if we are blessed with a girl, I hope she likes trees & chucks; three: I decidedly do not like the colors pink and purple. Oh and one more thing -"Pin Cinderella in the Window"?!?!?!? I guess the ass got the boot.

And of course, we were asked when we were going to start having babies. Now, I kind of expected this since we were at a kids' party but I also (kind of) expected the topic to be dropped when I said "you know, whenever. No rush." And it wasn't. And I had to restrain myself from junk-punching someone. What I really want to tell people and frankly, I think it's only a matter of time before I do, is "Our procreation, or lack thereof, is really none of your fucking business." THAT is what I wanted to say, but y'all know I didn't. She kept prodding and I nodded, plastered on a grin and said, "Here's the thing, sweetie, my ovaries don't work. So, if you know how to fix them, please, by all means, contact my doctor and let him know because he sure as hell can't figure it out." Cue end of conversation.

Not that this is breaking news or anything but everyone is full of expert opinions...until the details come out. Then they don't know what to say...and you know what? I don't give a flying spaghetti monster. I'm tired of making excuses for people not knowing any better (and I don't mean Darlene at the grocery store, I'm talking about people that you KNOW, family, close friends, etc...). And with that...

Thank you for your wonderful comments. Some of you posted on the blog and others e-mailed and/or called. All of you said that I wasn't a coward, and while I appreciate it, I do disagree with you. But that's okay; I am what I am...for now. Had an impromptu talk this weekend about our plans and the next steps, so we'll see what happens.

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Saw Green.Zone. Liked it, had discussions about the motives of the movie and the message and recommended it to others. Flew solo Sunday afternoon and went to see Remember.Me...and left snotsobbing. Best movie ever? No, but it really was a good movie and I hope it gets the acclaim it deserves.

S*X*S*W also started last week and I am so excited! I hope* to be spending time at a few shows this week/end and cannot wait. Live music pwns me and this event is just epic. *I didn't purchase a wristband this year bc they were $750 for music ($1580 for media, music and interactive) and I'm kinda pissed about that. I remember when they were $75 back when I was in high school. I mean, shit, I live here for fuck's sake. Shouldn't we residents get some sort of break? Sadly, even my rage about pricing can't keep me away. But whatevs, I'll just pay a cover and wait in line.

It can only take a moment to waste the rest of your life. - Chuck Palahniuk, Snuff.

hello monday...

happy monday! so...nothing too exciting happening with me (for a change). today is International Women's Day, so congratulate the women in your life for what they've accomplished in this world of glass ceilings...social, political and economical. we've got a long way to go but we're getting there (congrats kathryn.bigelow).

went to see Alice.in.Wonderland (in 3D) Friday night and was blown away. not so much by the story or the acting, but the new technology in film is simply amazing and i was stunned and in awe. spent Saturday down in Corpus celebrating my nephew's 3rd birthday. and let me just say this - 4hrs with 12 3yros...actually, i probably don't even have to say anything. you can guess.

am planning on my next trip - or trying to. we'll see. i should know more this week. i owe y'all some stories and i'm working on it. rather than type it out 100x and to 100 different people, i'm in the midst of creating a mass e-mail and will post it once i'm done. as for the pictures, i'll probably provide a link to the album for my family and friends. and i'll let you know when that's available and you can PM me and request the link.

i can't believe it's already march. only 5 more months until my next drs appt...only 5 more months until some decisions will have to be made. 5 months.

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Sometimes I feel that life is passing me by, not slowly either, but with ropes of steam and spark-spattered wheels and a hoarse roar of power or terror. It's passing, yet I'm the one who's doing all the moving. ~Martin Amis, Money

hello!

made it back from Ohio in one piece. had to spend 6 hours at the Midway airport in Chicago due to weather delays. then flew straight into a massive storm cell. the last hour and a half of the flight was rocky...like, um, dropping and bouncing and rocking back & forth. oh, did i mention the lightning show that was going on outside? yea. and i have to get on a plane again in 9 days. fun.

the clothes i ordered online came in. all but one pair of pants fit nicely. well, they fit but they're too long. figured as much. they're also lined, which i didn't note when i ordered them. and i'm wondering if they'll be too bulky to pack in the backpack. we'll see. slowly things are getting crossed of the 'to-do' list for the trip. i cannot believe i leave next thursday. *so excited*

3 days after i get back, i'm going to see this man. again. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. and in March, i'll be checking out this dude and these guys. saw them both at ACL '09 and loved 'em. found out recently that Lil.ith Fair will be stopping here on tour this summer. the line-up is fab and i'm just waiting to buy tix.

and that's all for now. have a super day...until next time,

cheerio!

Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.
- Khalil Gibran

Went to see Master Pancake Theater - Forrest Gump this weekend and OMG...seriously, find out if it's showing near you and GO. NOW. Funniest thing I've seen in a LONG time. So good.

I leave for OH tomorrow morning - too early.

Finally ordered some stuff for my trip. Got a few cargo-style pants. Please sweet baby jesus let them fit, as I ordered them online and am NERVOUS. I know I'll have to have them hemmed but I can work with that.

Oh! Tried on a smaller size in jeans this weekend and nearly cried. They fit. I may or may not have done a little happy dance in the dressing room and there may or may not have been some shrieking involved. *lips sealed*

Also, I just wanted to say that you'll notice I took some things off my blog and rearranged others...if you have any questions about our IF experience or what we've done to date or whatever, shoot me an e-mail or leave a comment.

That's all for now...until laters...peace.

This week has been shitty. And I realize that my shitty and your shitty and Bob's shitty are all different....but yea. SHITTY. And all of it is work related. People, systems, deadlines...gah. I could go on. I'm just glad its almost over.

On a lighter note, my brother turns 14 tomorrow. I can't believe it! Fourteen. I turned 30 in August and I think the realization of that just hit me. Which means that my 1/2 birthday is coming up soon, too. And I'll be 6 months away from 31...holy shit. Lots to do between now and then...lots to do.

Homework tonight: 4min run, 3min walk x 6.

qui onques rien n'enprist riens n'achieva

Proverbs often contradict one another, as any reader soon discovers. The sagacity that advises us to look before we leap promptly warns us that if we hesitate we are lost; that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but out of sight, out of mind.

Leo Rosten

People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.

Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

we take off for Vegas tomorrow but i wanted to leave you with this:


It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.

Alan Cohen

We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once. And we should call every truth false which was not accompanied by at least one laugh.

Friedrich Nietzsche

Very often we are our own worst enemy as we foolishly build stumbling blocks on the path that leads to success and happiness.

Louis Binstock

The most important thing to remember is this: To be ready at any moment to give up what you are for what you might become.

W.E.B. Du Bois

The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white. Neither need you do anything but be yourself. 

Laozi

Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.

Lao Tzu

hola, peeps

so, not a lot going on. i know, i know...shocking!

mother's day was a ball of fun. not. it has to be the most dreaded holiday for me. and i wish i could just curl up in a ball and sleep the day away. but alas, i can't. and so i don't. and it's not really that i'm still drowning in my own misery related to IF b/c i'm not. but mother's day is a reminder...and let's be real, do we IF'ers need reminders? i mean, it's there. it's in the back of my head...i can think about it whenever i want to. sigh.

moving on...

i *think* i finally 'found' the tattoo that i want to get. i'll be sure to post a pic once i have it done.

the captain's b-day is next month and i'm not sure what to get him. he'll be 35...old. hehe. i'm taking suggestions for a gift. shoot me your thoughts.

it's already summer her in the ATX. hazy days are ahead....blech!

looking forward to going to roller derby on sunday with some friends; should be totes fun!

the captain is going on his annual boys' trip this weekend. what's a girl to do with 3 days to herself? bwahahahahaha actually, i think i might sign up for a sewing class and get a little project i've been working on out of the way.

and that's it. see...nada...zilch...i got nuttin'! but mebbe that's not such a bad thing?

I feel my body, my mind, weighted down - all is heavy - but my blood, my inner fire, my passion, the little unburdened kid in me, patiently wait to burst free. Some of us die never having burst.

- Drew Sirtors

boring meme

1. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Flores Mexican...local haunt
2. What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?TexMex (haha)
3. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Scar Tissue and wisdom teeth
4. What is the last heavy item you lifted? Smoker/BBQ Pit...o.0 at the captain
5. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? negative
6. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? nope.
7. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? i have no clue.
8. What’s your goal for the year? mark some things off my list
9. Last person you hugged? the captain
10. First place you went this morning? potty
11. Do you always answer your phone? nope
12. It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? hahaffnhaha
13. If you could change your eye color what would it be? i wouldn't. green rulz.
14. What’s on your wish list for your birthday? sky diving!
15. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? excited
16. Do you have any saved texts? unintentionally
17. Ever been in a car wreck? yep
18. Do you have an accent? i am from Texas
19. What was the last song to make you cry? Lenders in the Temple, Conor Oberst
20. What did you do last night? read
21. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? been close, but no.
22. Current hate right now? noobs
23. Met someone who changed your life? yep
24. How did you bring in the New Year? with my 13yro brother!
25. What song represents you? oooo...good question; it changes. lol!

catching up

i have no idea where to start, so i'm just going to start rambling....as usual.

friend and fellow blogger, Lori (private blog) welcomed baby Landen! congrat's to Lori and David!

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was OOT on business last week. went to C-bus, Ohio. watched a minor league baseball game in the wind and rain; ate a hot dog. i know, i know. but i was starving and thought i might die...from both starvation and the hot dog. hung out here; i can't recommend any food but i can tell you they make some mean cranberry & vodka's. also hung out here to see a band (o.O...can't find them on the interwebs or i'd link you). all in all, met some fun peeps and had a good time.

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am seriously giddy over this 2009 lineup. if you're my friend on face.book, check out my lineup.
i cannot wait. gah. the countdown has begun. oct 2-4. if you're in the ATX, holla!

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was rec'd a band. bought the album. and love it.

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heh. my neighbor came by last night...asked us about having kids. surprisingly, infertility and our situation rolled right off my tongue. no hesitation. then she asked who my dr was (she's an L&D nurse). i told her. she then told me that was my problem. that he sucked. and cont'd on and on...um. yea. then i got kinda pissy. but then came the 'you're still young' comment. yea. i thought that, too. but 3 years later...still aging. and eggs are a'rottin'. but whatevs.

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trying to plan a trip to vegas next month. crossing my fingers everything falls into place. we desperately need it.

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last but not least...and most exciting. am planning on purchasing this. i am a little nervous, for obvious reasons. but i am so friggin' excited. is there anything i should know? any advice?

and that's about it. i know. pretty meh. but tomorrow it's wordy wednesday and i know how much y'all just live for that. haha!

peace.

from my F*@% It Bucket List

this is for my AK, who told me at the wedding she reads my blog. but apparently doesn't comment...shame on you, AK. i was going to list them in the order i wrote them but decided to just randomly pull and c/p...here are 13 from my list (13 is my lucky/fav number) -

2. Sky Diving (this will be crossed off on Aug 2!)
6. No-Predetermined-Destination Road Trip
14. World Series
21. ride a bull
27. ride a train - the Orient Express, travel Europe by train, too.
36. write a book about my life - not leaving out anything
46. ride a camel thru the desert
51. jump off a cliff
63. take a pic w/ Royal Guard
88. send a message in a balloon or bottle
90. run the stairs in Philly....Rocky style
95. surfing
111. stomp grapes

i know, i know. i'm b-o-r-i-n-g. nothing terribly exciting or unique, so sorry to disappoint. haha!

peace!

outtakes

I don't really have anything of significance to blog about (for a change), so I figured I'd share a few random outtakes from conversations btwn the Captain and myself this week...


***the Captian on becoming impatient with another person: "Hurry the hell up before I go Nancy.Kerrigan on your ass!"

seriously, who just pulls out a 'nancy.kerrigan' card? the captain, apparently.

***Back and forth that took place in the McDonald's drive-thru:

me: .....and I'd like to get a cheeseburger happy meal

McDs chick: would you like a girl or boy toy?

me: doesn't matter

the Captain (yelling across the car): we'd like a METROSEXUAL, please!

O.M.G. I nearly died from both embarrassment and laughter.

***I was IMing with a friend of mine the other night. And I was trying to remember the name of a certain old t.v. show. So, knowing he'd know the answer...this is how the convo went -

me: hey babe, 'member that old hillbilly show back in like the 70's. it was like a variety hour with rednecks and they used to square dance or something...i just remember them wearing a lot of gingham...remember? what was that called?

tc: oh yea, you mean HeeHaw.

me: yea, HeeHaw. Thanks!

(crickets chirping)

tc: wait. hold up. did you just call HeeHaw "hillbilly" and "redneck"?

me: uh, yea. duh!

tc: HeeHaw was NOT hillbilly! (proceeds to school me from the other room on how HeeHaw was anything BUT hillbilly for the next 10 minutes).

me: LMAO so hard, I literally fell out of the chair...

and I got the stink-eye for the next hour.

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not sure if these were as funny to you as they were me. perhaps they were more "you had to have been there" funnies. but it's all i've got and i'm still LOLing about them :)

peace

things you don't know

I was going to list 50 things you don't know about me but decided that was WAY too ambitious. Here are 25...

25. If I didn't color my hair, my head would be solid white. (note I did not say grey)
24. My favorite number is 13.
23. I've held residences in TX, FL and CO. But I am Texas born, Texas bred and when I die, I'll be Texas dead.
22. I used to do my sisters' homework. Like, all of it. All the time. So, y'all can blame me.
21. I cannot stand beer. It tastes like pee (I've never tasted pee but I am assuming that's what pee tastes like...beer or should that be the other way around? : / )
20. I am very, very clumsy. I fall a lot - and nothing need even be in my way. Actually, most of the time, there is no obstacle in my path. Sigh.
19. I sat down to take the LSAT my senior year in college. I left 25min into the exam. No regrets.
18. My senior year in high school, I moved to a town of 900 people and graduated in a class of 43. (I came from a city w/ nearly 1 million and a class of almost 700)
17. Above mentioned year was the best year of high school.
16. I worked full-time while attending night classes in college. Graduated in 4 yrs 2 months (summer) with two degrees.
15. I blew an engine in my most beloved car (Ford Bro.nco) because I failed to change the oil. Or add oil. Either way, it was oil-less.
14. My handwriting changes with the weather.
13. I cannot run. CAN.NOT run. Picture it here.
12. I have better than perfect eye-sight.
11. Until sometime last year (I can't even remember when), I had a blankie. I could not leave my house overnight with out it and could not sleep without it near.
10. I sucked my thumb until I was 10.
9. I didn't learn to tie my shoes until I was 8. And this is how I tie them. & always, always double knot.
8. I will wear my flip-flops even if it's snowing out.
7. The ganja does nothing for/to me - this was actually rather disappointing.
6. Random things that will make me hurl: anything scented vanilla or sugar cookie; Lipton seasonings; boiling hot dogs.
5. My eyebrows are naturally shaped...just a little waxing of strays is all I need to do.
4. Best $3.50 I've ever spent (and continue to)....here.
3. The Captain slammed the door in my face when we first met - it wasn't an accident.
2. I am painfully shy in real life.
1. You will always find this in my house. I have one every night. In bed.

cheers!