The greatest hazard of all, losing one’s self, can occur very quietly in the world, as if it were nothing at all. No other loss can occur so quietly; any other loss - an arm, a leg, five dollars, a wife, etc. - is sure to be noticed.

- Søren Kierkegaard, The Sickness Unto Death : Kierkegaard's Writings, Vol 19

catching up

i have no idea where to start, so i'm just going to start rambling....as usual.

friend and fellow blogger, Lori (private blog) welcomed baby Landen! congrat's to Lori and David!

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was OOT on business last week. went to C-bus, Ohio. watched a minor league baseball game in the wind and rain; ate a hot dog. i know, i know. but i was starving and thought i might die...from both starvation and the hot dog. hung out here; i can't recommend any food but i can tell you they make some mean cranberry & vodka's. also hung out here to see a band (o.O...can't find them on the interwebs or i'd link you). all in all, met some fun peeps and had a good time.

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am seriously giddy over this 2009 lineup. if you're my friend on face.book, check out my lineup.
i cannot wait. gah. the countdown has begun. oct 2-4. if you're in the ATX, holla!

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was rec'd a band. bought the album. and love it.

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heh. my neighbor came by last night...asked us about having kids. surprisingly, infertility and our situation rolled right off my tongue. no hesitation. then she asked who my dr was (she's an L&D nurse). i told her. she then told me that was my problem. that he sucked. and cont'd on and on...um. yea. then i got kinda pissy. but then came the 'you're still young' comment. yea. i thought that, too. but 3 years later...still aging. and eggs are a'rottin'. but whatevs.

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trying to plan a trip to vegas next month. crossing my fingers everything falls into place. we desperately need it.

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last but not least...and most exciting. am planning on purchasing this. i am a little nervous, for obvious reasons. but i am so friggin' excited. is there anything i should know? any advice?

and that's about it. i know. pretty meh. but tomorrow it's wordy wednesday and i know how much y'all just live for that. haha!

peace.

i'm back...kinda...

haha....no seriously, i was out all last week on a business trip and am still regaining my bearings. i'll post more tomorrow when i have some time to actually put together something decent for you lovelies to read.

have a great day!

The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.

- Friedrich Nietzsche

from my F*@% It Bucket List

this is for my AK, who told me at the wedding she reads my blog. but apparently doesn't comment...shame on you, AK. i was going to list them in the order i wrote them but decided to just randomly pull and c/p...here are 13 from my list (13 is my lucky/fav number) -

2. Sky Diving (this will be crossed off on Aug 2!)
6. No-Predetermined-Destination Road Trip
14. World Series
21. ride a bull
27. ride a train - the Orient Express, travel Europe by train, too.
36. write a book about my life - not leaving out anything
46. ride a camel thru the desert
51. jump off a cliff
63. take a pic w/ Royal Guard
88. send a message in a balloon or bottle
90. run the stairs in Philly....Rocky style
95. surfing
111. stomp grapes

i know, i know. i'm b-o-r-i-n-g. nothing terribly exciting or unique, so sorry to disappoint. haha!

peace!

so, last weekend was the wedding. there were no surprises but that doesn't mean it went on without incident. i came to two conclusions after the 3 day affair - 1. my family never disappoints. never. & 2. weddings are overrated. my advice to you singletons - E.L.O.P.E. save yourself the stress and the bullshit that goes along with having a wedding. go get hitched, get the little 8x10 piece of paper that will bind you to another person for life (hopefully) and then we'll throw down like it's 1999 in celebration. no expectations. no hurt feelings. no bridezillas. and it'll be perfectly acceptable for you to be unable to stand upright at the end of the night...on your own two feet...because it's a party, not a wedding. just sayin'.

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i took a nap last night and woke up craving a frosty from W.endy's. and a small fry. 'cause
frosty + fries = win. i told the Captain what I wanted and he just looked at me. so i twitched my nose and puckered my lips. that worked. i started heading towards W.endy's and the Captain said it was too far (meaning further than his 2 mile rule) and told me just to go to McD's for a milkshake. i rolled my eyes. now, i realize that for some of you, this may be no big deal. but for me, it is. i mean, how can you seriously compare a FROSTY to a MILKSHAKE? don't even try. you can't.

FAIL.

but i wasn't going to argue about going to McD's. i did argue the difference between the chocolaty goodness though. and i think i won. hell, i know i did. so, we get our milkshakes from McD's. sans fries. cuz you just can't trust McD's fries....sometimes they're perfection and then sometimes, they look about as old as my g'ma. sorry g'ma. and it's not really the same as a frosty and fries, anyways. and if you can't do something right, just don't do it.

came home, plopped my tush on my couch. started sucking thru the straw of my milkshake (um...obviously, that's ONE major difference...frosty = no sucking. must use spoon. damn, i want a friggin' frosty! never again Captain will you deny me the frosty. never.) as i'm sucking, i look over to my left just to check and make sure it's still there. and it is. staring at me. and i stare back. wagging my tongue like a 2yro. and the elliptical will still be there later. taunting me. but i didn't care. i was trying to enjoy my milkshake. and i did. as much as anyone can enjoy a milkshake...instead of a frosty.

and that was that. my craving was not satisfied. and i'm still wanting a frosty. with fries. from W.endy's.

it's now been added to my TDL for this weekend. #4 - FROSTY & FRIES.

but for now, Happy Thursday!

"Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them - if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry."

~J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye, Chapter 24, spoken by the character Mr. Antolini



*i'll be posting regularly again starting tomorrow...things have just been crazy busy 'round these parts*

I'm on call, to be there.
One and all, to be there.
And When I fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there waiting.

To be there.
To be there.

I'm on call, to be there.
One and all, to be there.
And When I fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there waiting.

I'm gon' brawl, so be there.
One for all, I'll be there.
And when they fall, to pieces.
Lord you know, I'll be there laughing.

Kings of Leon, On Call