3x = a streak?

yesterday, the 28th day of the 9th month of the year of 2008, was cycle day 1...bringing the official tally to 31 months of ttc.

but who's counting?

the good news is this past cycle was 30 days. so it looks like things are finally normalizing, as this is the 3rd cycle in a row of 35 days or less. i did a lil' song&dance yesterday when i charted...you say it's your birthday, it's my birthday too, yeah...i'll spare you the rest.

i've decided that i'm going to try and embrace my period. we have, after all, been together for 18 years (scary)! and well, i've not always treated auntie flo with kindness. as a matter of fact, over the years, i've been down right slanderous. but no apologies are given...she's been a bitch from day one. however, i'm thinking if maybe i just you know, become friends with her, she'll ease my pain and try and work with me on this whole lets-have-a-baby thing. perhaps if i massage the ego of my reproductive system, it will decide to behave and act accordingly? no?

so far, there's been nary a cramp.

playoffs, here we come!

“Go Cubs Go”
By Chicago folk legend Steve Goodman.
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Baseball season’s underway
Well you better get ready for a brand new day
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today.
They’re singing …
Go, Cubs, go
Go, Cubs, go
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today
Go, Cubs, go
Go, Cubs, go
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today.
They got the power, they got the speed
To be the best in the National League
Well this is the year and the Cubs are real
So come on down to Wrigley Field.
We’re singing now …
Go, Cubs, go
Go, Cubs, go
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today
Go, Cubs, go
Go, Cubs, go
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today.
Baseball time is here again
You can catch it all on WGN
So stamp your feet and clap your hands
Chicago Cubs got the greatest fans.
You’re singing now …
Go, Cubs, go
Go, Cubs, go
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today
Go, Cubs, go
Go, Cubs, go
Hey, Chicago, what do you say
The Cubs are gonna win today.

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and that's all i have to say on this marvelous monday!

another one?

i got an e-mail today from a guy i went to high school with titled "it's another girl!". yes "another". i have to admit, while i'm excited for him and his wife, there is a tiny piece of my heart that is devastated.

who am i kidding? there's a huge part of me that is devastated.

and in the next 3 months, we will be receiving more birth announcements than i have space on my fridge. we are officially the only childless couple in our circle of married friends. it sucks. and even though b/c of my cycle issues and the other situation that i cannot blog about are keeping us from actively TTC until early '09, it still sucks.

for the most part, i really strive to be upbeat about all this IF crap. i mean, i really make a concerted effort to not wallow in my sorrows. where does wallowing ever get you anyway? but yesterday was one of those days. you know them...the days when it takes every ounce of energy you have to get out of bed and face the world and all the bullshit that is thrown at you. when it takes everything you've got to sift through the minutia of everyday life. when you realize that you're a failure at the one thing that seems so basic...the one thing that should be an automatic in life. that was my day yesterday. and i know there will be more of them but i pray i don't have another one of those days for a while. i know He has a plan.

i must say, i am grateful on most days that we aren't actively TTC b/c of the situation that i cannot blog about (and really, THAT sucks) b/c it is so stressful and i cannot imagine trying to do both right now, it's still a hard pill to swallow. (i hope that made sense.)

to all my friends who have children and/or are about to expand their family, we are absolutely thrilled for you! and congratulate you on your blessings.

to all my IF friends (and one that is not IF, you know who you are), thank you for helping me get through days like yesterday; without you i honestly do not know what shape i'd be in.

peace.

so, we were spared by Ike. didn't even get a drop of rain! apparently we were 50 miles too far west. i'm kinda irritated. nothin' from Gustav...and nothin' from Ike. i mean, i know that most people don't wish for hurricanes but certainly people wish for rain, right? sigh.

only thing Ike did manage to screw up for us was a trip to Houston tomorrow. i don't think that will happen. and i am pissed. the captain and i had some extremely important business to handle in Houston. who knows when that'll get rescheduled.

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nothing new to note as far as my cylce is concerned. i still haven't felt anything relating to ovulation. and i probably didn't ovulate or haven't yet....surprise! blech.

double blech.

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what do y'all think about my new header? i did it myself over @ scrapblog. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE that site!

moseying along...

today is cd12...not feeling anything remotely similar to what i felt last month that led me to believe i was ovulating. i'm not too surprised by this. sigh.

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am i the only one sick of all the campaigning and POTUS election overload? ugh. i'm pooped! and who's idea was it to start this election cycle over a year ago anyway? i'd like to beat them w/ a 5lb bag of nickels! tbh, i'm ready for 2012. lol.

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in case you're wondering, i'm an undecided libertarian. not a position i fancy right now...not at all.

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off to get eatin' up by the vultures of the working world...bbl...

insurance be damned!

today is cd5. i am supposed to start my clomid on cd5. but that is not going to happen. why? because of INSURANCE!

on 09/01, my prescription plan changed carriers. today is 09/03. not only did i not realize this but it also requires a new prior-authorization for the clomid. so, the earliest i'll be able to take the clomid is tomorrow, cd6...and that won't work. it won't freakin' work. dammit.

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since most of my friends are teachers, i just wanted to give a huge sHoUt OuT to all you teachers! good luck this year!