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Saturday, July 11, 2009


all of the sudden, out of no where it hit me like a ton of bricks today.  i haven't thought about infertility too deeply in several months.  

but i was sitting here watching a TOILET PAPER commercial of all things, and a little boy running thru the hall. and BAM. there it is....flood gates opened.  tbh, i'm seriously annoyed more than anything else.  i know that until we either do get pregnant and have a baby or until we decide what our familial future holds, i'll never be 'over' infertility...or at least have 'moved on'.  but shit. i was not expecting to just have a fucking breakdown unexpectedly.  and only one word comes to mind right now.  

FAILURE.

3 comments:

Jen J said...

YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!

I understand what you mean - because I'm right there too but you're not a failure. You're on a break and putting you & the Captain first and when you're ready you'll get back in the game. You will know what is right for you.

{{{HUGS}}} Wish that I had more words of wisdom than that!

Kelly C said...

Thinking of you! Hopefully we can both hang out and be failures together in Chi-town some time soon...

*jess* said...

YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE! my heart aches for you and that child that you want so badly. there's probably nothing that anyone can say or do to make you feel better so i'm offering all the {{{HUGS}}} that i've got! hang in there. ;)