ah, 2009...

can you be a better friend than 2008? Can we try to do this together, you know, like partners? Can we promise each other, right now, that you'll be a much friendlier, kinder year than your predecessor? Please?

As 2009 is just hours away, I can't help but think of what is to come. The Captain is one surgery down with a couple more to go (we think). We have some legal stuff to take care of next month (fingers crossed). And of course, who could forget that we're entering another year of baby-wanting-but-not-getting.

Speaking of (or typing of...?) TTC, it occurred to me that 2009 will probably not bring a baby. Now, I'm not saying it definitely won't happen. But I am being realistic. (The Captain would love that...me being a realist, instead of the dreamer I usually am.) I just don't see it happening. And not because we don't want it to, obviously. But I just don't think it's in the cards for us in 2009 (those of you who know us IRL kwim).

And you know what? I am strangely, almost frighteningly, at ease with this realization. That doesn't mean our desire isn't there or has just gone away. Or I won't feel as, oh I don't know, pissed at the world about our fertility problems. But perhaps since I recognize that '09 will (more than likely) not bring a mini-captain, the easier it will be for me to deal/cope with our situation? Maybe not? We'll see. Shrug.

Now, all of that being said...AF is late. I think it's just stress, as I'm not in the running. Kind of a cruel, tho not unusual, way to end the year, eh? Bwahahahahaha. Bitch. ;)

And just so y'all know, my only resolutions for 2009 are to smile more and laugh as often as possible and love with all that I have. (pshhhhht....you know you love it when I get all Hallmark-y on you!)

Be safe. Be merry. Be the star of the p-a-r-t-y!

Happy New Year!

hey, jerry!

so, looks like jerry and rebecca wanna have a baby. three words: join.the.club.

i'm not going to spend more time on hottie jerry and his gorgeous wife, rebecca. not when julie has done a great job of summing up my feelings (as usual), read here. and not when i'm determined to finish this blog not feeling like a rejected-reproductively broken-freak. sigh.

i'm waiting for my next cycle to start. i was sure it was going to be this morning, as my legs were hurting a lot last night...so much so that i had to keep moving them while lying in bed (not normal for me). but alas, there's no sign of her, yet. i've been told i can technically start charting at any point in my cycle. but i like to have a clear start-date. so, i've decided to wait until cd1; hence, my impatience with AF's timing, or lack thereof.

i signed up for a sewing class next month! yay! i'm SO excited! there are so many projects i want to start working on for Christmas and Chanukkah gifts (yes, i realize it's only july...but i'm c-r-a-z-y like that!). i bought some fabrics last night - and i must say, i love them all. the fabric cutter/cashier kept telling me how much she liked what i'd picked out. now, of course, she might have just been saying this but it made me feel good that a total stranger liked my picks...hopefully the recipients of my gifts will too!

are you crafty? what types of gifts do you make for your family & friends (or for yourself?!)?