The snow goose need not bathe to make itself white. Neither need you do anything but be yourself. 

Laozi

Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.

Lao Tzu

hola, peeps

so, not a lot going on. i know, i know...shocking!

mother's day was a ball of fun. not. it has to be the most dreaded holiday for me. and i wish i could just curl up in a ball and sleep the day away. but alas, i can't. and so i don't. and it's not really that i'm still drowning in my own misery related to IF b/c i'm not. but mother's day is a reminder...and let's be real, do we IF'ers need reminders? i mean, it's there. it's in the back of my head...i can think about it whenever i want to. sigh.

moving on...

i *think* i finally 'found' the tattoo that i want to get. i'll be sure to post a pic once i have it done.

the captain's b-day is next month and i'm not sure what to get him. he'll be 35...old. hehe. i'm taking suggestions for a gift. shoot me your thoughts.

it's already summer her in the ATX. hazy days are ahead....blech!

looking forward to going to roller derby on sunday with some friends; should be totes fun!

the captain is going on his annual boys' trip this weekend. what's a girl to do with 3 days to herself? bwahahahahaha actually, i think i might sign up for a sewing class and get a little project i've been working on out of the way.

and that's it. see...nada...zilch...i got nuttin'! but mebbe that's not such a bad thing?

I feel my body, my mind, weighted down - all is heavy - but my blood, my inner fire, my passion, the little unburdened kid in me, patiently wait to burst free. Some of us die never having burst.

- Drew Sirtors

boring meme

1. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Flores Mexican...local haunt
2. What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?TexMex (haha)
3. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Scar Tissue and wisdom teeth
4. What is the last heavy item you lifted? Smoker/BBQ Pit...o.0 at the captain
5. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? negative
6. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? nope.
7. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? i have no clue.
8. What’s your goal for the year? mark some things off my list
9. Last person you hugged? the captain
10. First place you went this morning? potty
11. Do you always answer your phone? nope
12. It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? hahaffnhaha
13. If you could change your eye color what would it be? i wouldn't. green rulz.
14. What’s on your wish list for your birthday? sky diving!
15. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? excited
16. Do you have any saved texts? unintentionally
17. Ever been in a car wreck? yep
18. Do you have an accent? i am from Texas
19. What was the last song to make you cry? Lenders in the Temple, Conor Oberst
20. What did you do last night? read
21. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? been close, but no.
22. Current hate right now? noobs
23. Met someone who changed your life? yep
24. How did you bring in the New Year? with my 13yro brother!
25. What song represents you? oooo...good question; it changes. lol!

The greatest hazard of all, losing one’s self, can occur very quietly in the world, as if it were nothing at all. No other loss can occur so quietly; any other loss - an arm, a leg, five dollars, a wife, etc. - is sure to be noticed.

- Søren Kierkegaard, The Sickness Unto Death : Kierkegaard's Writings, Vol 19

catching up

i have no idea where to start, so i'm just going to start rambling....as usual.

friend and fellow blogger, Lori (private blog) welcomed baby Landen! congrat's to Lori and David!

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was OOT on business last week. went to C-bus, Ohio. watched a minor league baseball game in the wind and rain; ate a hot dog. i know, i know. but i was starving and thought i might die...from both starvation and the hot dog. hung out here; i can't recommend any food but i can tell you they make some mean cranberry & vodka's. also hung out here to see a band (o.O...can't find them on the interwebs or i'd link you). all in all, met some fun peeps and had a good time.

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am seriously giddy over this 2009 lineup. if you're my friend on face.book, check out my lineup.
i cannot wait. gah. the countdown has begun. oct 2-4. if you're in the ATX, holla!

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was rec'd a band. bought the album. and love it.

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heh. my neighbor came by last night...asked us about having kids. surprisingly, infertility and our situation rolled right off my tongue. no hesitation. then she asked who my dr was (she's an L&D nurse). i told her. she then told me that was my problem. that he sucked. and cont'd on and on...um. yea. then i got kinda pissy. but then came the 'you're still young' comment. yea. i thought that, too. but 3 years later...still aging. and eggs are a'rottin'. but whatevs.

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trying to plan a trip to vegas next month. crossing my fingers everything falls into place. we desperately need it.

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last but not least...and most exciting. am planning on purchasing this. i am a little nervous, for obvious reasons. but i am so friggin' excited. is there anything i should know? any advice?

and that's about it. i know. pretty meh. but tomorrow it's wordy wednesday and i know how much y'all just live for that. haha!

peace.